Freedom of Acceptance and Change
July Fourth is about freedom. The freedom that I want is the insanity of compulsive overeating and self-loathing. There was a quote from Philip Arnold that states, “You will never be free until you free yourself from the prison of your own false thoughts.” The strongest prison is the one we create for ourselves through our own fear. In my meditation this morning, it talked about the Serenity Prayer, which, if you’re not familiar with it, states “God, grant me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change, the courage to change the things I can and the wisdom to know the difference.”
Sometimes, if we change the things we can, but we don’t accept the things we can’t, then we start to think that the changes we’ve made aren’t worthwhile. We think they aren’t good and we shouldn’t have made them in the first place. Then we fall back on old behaviors. If we accept the things we cannot change, but we don’t change the things we can, then we stay stuck. Maybe we’re not stuck in a place of complete unhappiness because were accepting some of the things in our life we don’t like. We’re still not moving towards the achievement of things we do want.
I realized that I’ve been feeling a little crazy and bound by fear because I haven’t been following that prayer. Several days ago, I saw a week had passed and the scale wasn’t moving, I decided to look at my behavior and see what I could change. My eating was sloppy. It wasn’t aligned with the plan my trainer had designed for me. I also realized I could move more. Monday, I got out for my 20-minute walk (twice), I went to the gym and did the workout my trainer had planned for me. I even swam five laps. My eating was not only healthy but aligned with her plan for me. Yesterday, despite being up late the night before with a plumbing emergency, I got up early with my husband and did a challenging two-mile hike. We went into Hollywood at the children’s request. When they got hungry, and we stopped at a restaurant and I had a salad with grilled chicken. Later that night, I made steak, salad, and butternut squash. I also drank tons of water.
Yet, when I got up this morning and did my daily check-in with the scale, (who is, as of today, not my friend). A week passed I had not even lost half a pound. I had lost 2/10 of a pound. Now, I know what you’re probably thinking: 2/10 of a pound is pretty good, and if you lose that every day, that is a pound and a half a week. Well, that’s true, and maybe that what will happen. However, there are a couple things at play in my mind, one is that I’m coming off a month and a half of eating like the common house fly; basically, a diet consisting of sugar, with a side of sugar, topped with chocolate.
Do the Work
If you’ve ever dieted in your life, you know the gift of the first-week drop of 4-6 pounds of water, granted. Still, the mental boost it gives you. Just to see that nice drop in weight really can help you to coast through the following 3-4 weeks. So, for me to see that in 2 weeks I have lost just a little over half a pound… that’s disheartening. In addition to that, we all know that it’s not necessarily consistent to lose the same amount every single day. All of that doesn’t matter. The serenity prayer says: I need to accept the things I cannot change and change the things I can.
Truthfully, I have changed all the things I can change at this point. My eating is stellar. I will continue to tweak it and remove carbs where I feel like I can. I will stick to eating every three hours, keeping the food healthy, clean, and free from chemicals or processed junk. But, I’m eating super healthy, and not very much. Low fat, no sugar, and all natural.
I’m working out every day. I’m on my way to the gym right now. I already did a 20-minute walk and I will swim 5-10 laps in the pool later today. By the way, I figured out my goal. Given that 5 laps take me about 5 minutes, maybe 4 minutes, my goal is to make my way up to 40 laps in the pool.
Accept the Things I Cannot Change
So, anywho. It’s up to me to accept the things I cannot change. The things I cannot change are how quickly the scale is moving, how quickly I’m shrinking, what I have on my schedule that might conflict with working out. What I can change is moving around my schedule to make sure I get my workout in. I can’t change the fact that I’m going to have to work or the fact that my kids are going to get hungry at times that are inconvenient for me. I’m ready to eat healthy food wherever we go, whatever time of day. How quickly my body lets go of this weight is out of my control too. I can’t change how quickly my body transforms into its future lean sexy self.
Courage to Change the Things I Can
The things I can change, I have changed. So now it’s just up to me to let go and trust God to handle the rest, and He can. He has made more magical changes in my life, in my career, in my finances, and in my marriage. I one-hundred-and-fifty-percent know, that I have changed the things that I can, and I’m accepting the things that I can’t. God will provide me with the outcome that I want.
So, it gives me some comfort to say this out loud. If I take it one day at a time, and stay aligned with the serenity prayer of accepting the things that I can’t change and changing the things, then my journey towards achievement of the body that I want will be achieved in God’s time.